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||Wednesday, September 08, 2004 12:11 PM
The Lord impressed me to write you this early this morning.
"The deception is in your perception!"
Think about it. Just because you perceived this relationship
with this man to be innocent in the beginning, doesn't make it so.
While others, wise in years, and spiritual discernment, could
see this man's intentions for you were selfish, you could not.
That's where you should have listened to the multitude of
counselors, that the bible talks about.
You were so sure that your intentions were pure, that you
ignored unbiased counsel like that from Larry and Gaila Ryan,
who told you this relationship had to stop. The bible says the
"HEART IS DECEITFUL ABOVE ALL THINGS". Linda, your heart deceived
you. It still is. You have to know in your heart that even though
we are divorced by man, that God would not have you in a relationship
with another man that you are so close to that you would never
look back at reconciliation. Without this man in your life, it
is still possible that it would happen.
After the last two trips to Norway with him traveling all
over Europe together, even your most ardent supporters now believe
this has turned into a boyfriend girlfriend sexual relationship
between you two. Why would anyone ever be able to feel differently.
Linda, if you had really planned on being in ministry you
should have taken the higher road as your song says. You should
be above reproach.
"The deception is in your perception"!
Please don't burn all your bridges back home, I believe that
you are going to need them later, when the deception is broken.
I love you with all my heart. There is just nothing I can
do for you right now to prove it. I cannot compromise 3ABN. It's
bigger than us. If resigning would prove to you that this was
not just a move to get rid of you for personal reasons, I would
do it in a minute. But at this point I don't think that would
When your perception of the deception is broken by God, you
will see this relationship that you have bit into as a pile of
horse dung that had chocolate coating. He was never a piece of
chocolate cake for your life. He deceived you with words just
like Satan did Eve in the garden of Eden.
Love is Forever!
ps. Linda, I've said all along that you would eventually
have a physical relationship with this man. The Wichita counselors
told you that too. You know the truth. You will deny it to man,
but you cannot to God. Even if I had failed you, you should have
gotten out of this relationship and tried to put ours back together.
Instead, by early May, I heard you and he on the phone planning
your vacations together to Scandinavia, and Las Vegas, and New
York. I also heard you ask him to come across the ocean and rescue
you from me. I also heard you tell him that you completely trusted
him and I also heard you tell him that you were glad that he
didn't dump you when you sent him an email telling him that you
were breaking off your relationship with him. Linda, all of that
was sin. Even if you thought I was wrong in how I was treating
you, you had no business in keeping that relationship alive.
By all rights, you should have broken off that relationship to
take the higher road regardless of what I was saying and how
I am acted.
I am doing that now. There are already a number of women who
have heard that we are divorce and want to get in the picture.
But even though I believe with all of my heart you are in the
wrong. I want nothing to do with anyone else at this point in
my life. I have to give God time to work a miracle! Can't you
see that. You should not be traveling around the world with this
man. Rumor has it that he is planning on being back in the US
and traveling with you in Oct. Anyway you and me should be spending
time alone like your web page says that you've been doing the
last several months.
I may have wasted my time, but I felt the Lord impressed me
to write this. If there is truth in what I have written I'm asking
God to prick your heart when you read this and help you to be
miserable your last week in Norway with this man! Yes, you can
swallow these feelings in you chose, but I believe that God will
prick your heart!